Smiling While Hiding Pain

Still wondering how my future going to be. Is it going to be the same as now? Or different? If its different, how much difference it is going to be? There is time I feel so tired...thinking about my life, my fate and my pain that no one knows. Living my life as normal as I can smiling, laughing hiding my thoughts.

My dream, my happiness is all being buried. I buried them myself. I thought by telling closest people about what I feel, they would help me but they all think differently. I want to break free... I want to be able to do things that I want to do, things that makes me feel happy.. But why am I too afraid? Am I a coward?

If only someone can reach out their hands to me and telling me that everything going to be fine and I will found my happiness, I would be so happy. 

I'm just trying to survive each day... 

In this pain that no one knows...

I'm just going to smile

Maybelline Superstay Matte Ink

Hai wassup girls out there!
I'm back again and this time let me tell you about my collection of Maybelline Superstay Matte Ink!

So the story is, little few months ago (probably. I can't remember the exact month) one of my officemate bought a Maybelline Superstay Matte Ink and she said "akak you try this. Warna dia cantik and lawa2 akak beli satu" so I was wondering and thinking about it like "should I give it a try?"

I just decided to buy one and thinking that my officemate said "akak this one lawa, this one that one" lol I was so blind by the colors so officially I bought one and tested it. Guess what? I've been officially attach to it now.

The colors are pretty, not that sticky, very long lasting and match so well with my lips. How to clean it? Just use your make up remover and it's done. Wallahhh....

Right now I've collected 7 colors of Superstay Matte Ink and will probably add more because I just love love love it... Thanks to my officemate, I'm about to be a collector, lol.

So, here I'm listing down my colors :
1. LOVER 15
2. BELIEVER 40
3. AMAZONIAN 70
4. FOUNDER 115
5. ASSERTIVE 205
6. VERSATILE 210
7. TRANSFORMER 230

9th July 2019, 3.15PM

This is my first writing after so damn long! How many years has its been?

Bring back so many memories but sadly all those posts has been deleted by me a few years ago.

(Obviously, aku nak lupakan something back then that's why aku delete semua post) 

But today is miracle! I'm here again hahaha....

It feels good 😊

Let's meet again soon..